Good news - my new e-cigarette supplies came. I picked them up tonight.
I'll be honest, it was a hard day. There's some big and small changes going on in my life right now. While I am really glad that I've decided to quit smoking right now, the changes caught up with me today. I'm feeling quite a bit of sadness and loss. I call it grief.
The leaving of something behind, like a bad habit that I've practiced for 12 years, is scary and it's hard. How can something so detrimental to my health and quality of life feel like my closest friend sometimes? I know that this is what I want - to quit smoking. I know it's good and I'm determined to move forward.
My own grief today sat alongside a dear friend's grief over losing her beloved dog. My heart breaks for her. Change in all it's forms is part of life - part of growing up. Making the hard choices is what life is about - it's what growth is about. Some change brings joy. Some change brings grief. Embracing what it is and moving forward, even with baby steps is true strength. I'm surrounded by people who love me, support me and practice true strength in so many ways. For that, I am truly blessed and thankful.
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