My Value - Part 1

Before going to bed last night, I tore up the remaining cigarettes in my pack.  This morning, at 11 a.m., I bought another pack.  I've smoked six cigarettes today and will probably have another before bed.  Not bad for a "pack-a-day" habit.  However, today was my quit date.  Reason/excuse:  I ordered more supplies for my e-cigarette and they didn't arrive yet.  They should be here tomorrow and once I have them in my hands, I intend to again tear up any remaining cigarettes and quit.  Disappointed?  Me too.  Tomorrow is another day - another opportunity to quit.  I was thinking on the way home - I have to do more than TRY to quit - I have to quit.  I think that's a good mental shift.  Please keep praying and/or sending me positive wishes - I need it.  I promise to keep you posted.

Tonight's topic, personal value, might span a couple of entries.  What do I believe is my value in life - professionally, personally, spiritually?  When I say "believe" I mean the things you know in your head AND heart.  When you believe something, it becomes a part of who you are and influences how you feel, what you think about and how you interact with others around you.

I had a friend ask me recently "What do you think my values are?"  I'm not talking about a belief system here.  When you value something, it speaks to the kind of person you are.  Because I knew my friend wanted to know what I really thought, I didn't hesitate in answering.  I love to look at a person and see the beautiful things that make them who they are. 

The much harder question for me has been what do I think of my own value.  In a recent counseling appointment, I made a statement about the value I bring in my work, which I think is considerable.  My counselor asked me, "Do you really believe that?" And I said, "I'm starting to."  That's the truth. 

I hope you know you have value.  I believe you do - and I'm starting to believe I do too.