Dreams

Tonight I went to Disney's 50th animated movie, Tangled.  A new Disney princess was introduced, Rapunzel.  Surrounded by parents and children, I sat eating my nachos.  I won't give away any key points of the movie, but I will say I clapped at the end with the rest of the audience.

There was one scene of the movie that moved me.  Rapunzel is about to see her dream come true and she is afraid.  "What if it isn't all I want it to be?" Response "It will be."  Rapunzel "What if it is (all I want it to be)?" Response "You get a new dream."

That resonated with me.  It made me think of my own dreams.  I drew a blank at present dreams, so I began to remember past dreams.  While growing up, I dreamed of moving back to Seattle (I lived here from ages 3- 8).  When I flunked out of college, I dreamed of owning my own business.  In my childhood, I dreamed of a best girl friend.  And of course, I dreamed of true love. 

I've had many dreams come true.  Several dreams were all I wanted them to be.  Many dreams broke my heart.  As the years have passed, I've stopped dreaming.  Life develops a sameness.  Time moves faster and before I know it another year is drawing to an end.  I forgot to get new dreams.

Until a year ago, my focus has been healing from the past.  Becoming a whole healthy person.  I realize that will be a life-long journey.  This year has been a year to begin looking forward.  Building healthy relationships and working towards a healthy person physically have been my focus.  Without conscious thought, my heart has begun to dream again. 

I'm terrified.  What if the dreams don't come true?  What if they do?  (I'm just as terrified of dreams coming true than not.) What if my heart gets broken?  I've learned there are many ways a heart can break. 

I want the courage to allow my heart to dream big dreams.  To open my heart and peak inside to see what dreams are waiting there.  It's time to get new dreams.